so i luv luv my little brother! meep! i luv him! ha! yup and luv 2 spoil dat little brat 2!!! :oP
we watched Ice Age 2 together on friday, like after I picked him up from school and den right now, we were planning on leavin 2 like Target or something so he can buy some more video games...only da truck is here...so i was all..."um...if we find da keys we'll go, but we're not tellin mom, k?!" haha. and he's so cute! he's all "yeah, it'll b our little secret" hehe. aaw que cute!

bueno. funny story time!
ok, so as u all might know...BRS uses cubicles. yes cubicles! (ppl have such a strange liking 2 dat word! haha) and da last day i was working...it was a sunday i believe...um, i did something extremely dumb! hehe. ok so check dis out. dey actually sat us friends aside each other. it was mayra on my left, me in da middle, and oscar on my right, y luego Adrian 2 rows in front of us, in other words, he was not in front of me facing me but behind da guy who was facing me...get it? ok. so check this, we went all da way 2 Caliche's 4 break, on da way back, Oscar was drivin like crazy! and almost made me spill my banana split, besides da fact dat Adrian was in da back w/ me "tickling" me...(c i'm not ticklish...dat's y. haha) and when we got back 2 "working" he decides 2 throw me an eew! spit wat! gross! ha, so i got him back w/ a chewed up m'n'm! hehe! he throws it back, totally missed me and fell under Mayra's chair somehow, so check this! when i bent over 2 get pick it up, da dumbass dat i am, totally hit Mayra's chair's armrest!!!! lmfao! and HARD 2!!! it hurt! left me a red mark on my forehead and since it hurt so much and since dat was so stupid of me 2 have done, i couldn't stop laughing!!! 

i was, no kidding, laughing non-stop 4 about like 10 whole minutes til da point where i got red w/o breathing! haha, and Oscar had 2 save me! lmao. den i told him da story, and he started laughin, den we're both laughin tryin 2 tell Adrian across from us, my story, and Mayra, but we can't cuz we can't breathe cuz we're laughin! haha! AND DEN! 2 of our supervisors come up 2 us and ask us y we're not dialing...haha. den DEY start laughing....oh man! funniest thing ever! u just had 2 had 2 b der! hehe.

til dis day, Oscar and especially Adrian, do not live it down 4 me! whoops! silly me! it really hurt tho! i was in pain...lol.

eek! prom is exciting! i'm so stoked!!! so check dis: prom in 2 wks! my b-day da friday after! Americas' prom da next day! David's b-day da friday after dat! and Eastwood's prom da day after!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sweet!!!! hehe! too bad i gotta miss da music festival thing up in Cali!  :'o(  Stupid Poschmann's goin...*tear

can't wait 2 wear my beautiful dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my oh so fabulous shoes! i luv dem! man r my feet gonna b in pain! haha!
k lovers, laterz, 2 much talkin...sorry...i get excited...muah!
   Roscio (yup in Italian :oD)

Carlos & Mickey's OR Cappetto's???????????????

so much goin on in my life rite now...it's hard. yup. no worries. i'm an upper. keepin dat smile on as long as I could...

things on mind:

• y does he have 2 b da 1st 2 hug me?! y's he gotta push ppl outta da way 2 hug me?! wtf?!!!! i freakin thought i was over u! dammit!
• stupid essays! fuck books!
• men r idiots! includin my boyz
• i got da wrong size shirt from dylan from Hollister 4 V-day...eh...I'll sow it up
• if Teti's, my brother, havin a relapse...i'm gonna die
• i prefer not 2 b rescued
• i dont need any sleep
• i need alcohol... :o(
• Randall...
• i NEED 2 get 2 Cali dis year!!! i NEED 2 get away from here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Make*A*Wish*Foundation better keep their promise 4 Teti's wish...or I'm gonna screw dem over!!!
• cant stop thinkin about David! wtf?!
• i'm gonna die if he's havin a relapse....i'm gonna die! i swear i am....
• i like my hair
• i miss Zelene and Melinda and Mencaca and Discoduck...and Rene...and physics class...and Kane...haha...it could go on forever! haha
• cant wait 2 try on my new bathin suit! it's purtiful!!! eek!

yeah...didnt wanna sound depressed...cuz i'm not. just stressed. madd stressed and tired. tired so tired...
i'll update on stuff later

happy birthday to Monica, Marcus and my beautiful Krista!!!

oh and wat is up with this weather?! geez...

next thing you know...we can be in bikinis for next Christmas! oy vey!

Merry Christmas to all!!!

my brother crashed my mom's car on friday...yup...wat a day to do it huh?! lol...well it was more like Andrew hit da driver's side, da door dented, the window broke, noe got da shit out of him scared plus all dat glass on him...and now he ain't driving his truck! geez....

boys needed to learn one way or another! i told them...but w/e. that's what they get. i got da best gifts ever! especially da one from Teti! i luv that spinning picture-frame wheel thingy! eek! yay! homecoming pictures are getting put up! especially da group ones! aaw...i luv my guys! hehe

So I almost died of pain yesterday! geez!
Everyone thinks i'm as healthy as a...wat's considered healthy? hmm?...as a horse?...lol...anyway, everyone thinks i'm extra healthy which i am! you know. i've only been sick twice in 6 years...but anyway...not everyone knows about my rheumatism. i get riumas only the day before it's going to rain, just sometimes when i step barefoot on cold floor, but they have never been so bad. i always just tie a sock around my knees and i'm fine. usually i only get them on my knees...but once in a while my wrists or elbows too.
but anyway, yesterday i got one real bad on my left knee...up to the point that even after having it wrapped for about an hour, being under covers, and have had put that special lotion on it, it hurt like a mother! it hurt so bad! i couldn't walk or stand on it, i started crying (it's rare that i cry for physical pain...) and on top of that i had a bloody headache that hadn't gone away since i woke up and crying wasn't making it any better and i had lost my voice from yelling with da boyz from the day before and so i couldn't even yell for my mommy to come help me! it was to da point where my little brother came in to tell me my mom was calling me from the kitchen and he saw me crying...so i told him to tell my mom to come instead...and all she could do was drug me up...i mean wat else was there to do you know? so yeah...that was my friday nite! in horrible horrible pain for about 6hours til i cried myself to sleep...and today my left knee is just a tad bit sore and my right actually has a riuma right now, but it's nothing i can't handle...

my first posada was wednesday at church. meh, it was ok. thursday we had our FCA Christmas party! it was hella fun! i took some home-made (by me :oD) champurrado (mexican type of hot chocolate for those who don't know, like some on thursday lol...) and it was a success!!! everyone who tasted it liked it! yay me!!! i win. lol. everything was super on thursday, except for the part where i got hurt by David :o( . lol. so like we were fighting bcuz i dunno wat he told me but i pretended to get mad and was all don't make me get up u jerk! and he kept bugging me, so when i got up i slapped him hard, and he twirled me around and had my arm behind my back and his other hand was at my neck...so i elbowed him in da stomach...and then we fought...literally, and towards the end when he tripped me to land backwards on the couch he accidentally pulled one of my nails back (they were long back then...everyone thought they were fake, but they were real...) and i started bleeding from the inside of my nail, like under it,...and oh man! it went numb! lol...eh i got him back. haha! but yeah. it was fun! there was like top 30 people there including Kyle and Menchaca! eek...hehe.  oh and i drove Dannielle's standard car, it was funny! i did purty good til da point where Jordy and Noe were like tailgating my ass with their brights on! jerks! then i lost control and couldn't even start right...eh. so i parked. haha. oh!!!! and Roger got hit by Jordy's truck! like no joke! see after i parked, noe got off and i wanted to jump in with Jordy cuz i luv his truck, and when he saw me open da door he drives up a little...so i try again and he does da same thing, so i'm like jerk! i'm jumping in whether u like it or not, and playing around he hit da gas hardcore at da same time Roger decides to jump in front on top of Jordan's truck! bam! he gets hit and falls on da floor rolling...lmfao! i'm da first one there. "Roger, Roger! are you ok?!" he's just laughing..."ow my ribs...hey is my shirt dirty?" i'm like ay! fuckin idiot! haha...he's ok. w/e. i just thought it was da funniest thing! lmao.

i'm leaving. oh and i think i'm quitting BRS and working for a coffee shop! yay! laterz...i'ma go pig out! luv ya!

Today's the day you worried about yesterday and yesterday is the day you wish was today...

hmm...i do luv my yesterdays. Most of them anyway. I luv this weather and how good it makes me feel. Makes me wanna live outside. lol...eek. j/k. It's as if the world is just taking it's sweet time to pass you by. Giving you more time to enjoy life and it's every beauty. I luv making new memories and I luv seeing everything as it should be seen. Everything can be beautiful if you only take the time to look at it. I like laying in the park and staring at the sky. at night. in this weather. maybe with a raspberry chai on the side. lol...

days come and go, so make the most out of them! and don't spend a minute doubting your day or wishing today was as yesterday, because that's a minute you could make your day better than your yesterday!

luv ya!

I like Justin! ...which by the way i have a funny story to tell about this Justin guy. lmao! He got invited by friends to go to San Marcos (friends from San Marcos), so for a week he didn't know if he should or could because of his job and because of the partying he'd be doing over there...hens his quitting of drinking. But he ended up leaving friday afternoon. he told me he would call me when he arrived there just to let me know he was safe. and i told him "good deal." call me even if it's like 3 in the morning and i have to go to work that day. lol. so he does at 2. the thing is i didn't answer cuz it was an out of area number. then i get a voicemessage....it's Justin. check this out; so he leaves me a message saying they hit a deer drove off the road and landed in a ditch. but that him and Ian are ok and that he called his mom to bring him his truck so they can finish their journey to San Marcos. I'm listening to this half-asleep wondering if he's lying to me or not, wondering if i'm dreaming...is he ok? wtf?! he hit a deer?! all these random thoughts come to mind...hmm?

it was true! lmao! how funny is that?! but he sounded so calm in his message! haha...ayayay. crazy boys and their crazy lives!

wat else?! hmm...ah yes. i get to go to school late cuz our Dual Credit classes are done! yay! sleeping time! hehe...actually i did enough of that over da weekend! thank God! haha...i watched The Chronicles of Narnia! very good! very very good! i likeitalot! hehe...k. i'm outtie...

ok so this is coming off of my real journal i keep at home i started writing in all over again, ok?

Today at FCA I broke down crying again. The topic was Love and what God stands for. This topic went so deep, to the things everyone there was so afraid to think about, for the fear of tearing up as I did. But eventually Noe, Josiah and Minnie broke down as well. All I kept thinking about was like Noe said, "Why? How could I deserve all His love, even after what I've done and after the way I doubted Him and betrayed Him?" The only things running through my head were the scenes that have played over and over again. They're of my little brother in the hospital in pain and me turning away and praying to God to stop his pain; then seeing the pain get worse, to the point where Teti starts screaming at the top of his lungs in agony and yelling out that he wants to die. He's yelling at us to help ease his horrible pain and me standing there useless with the anger inside me growing stronger and stronger by the second. I turn around, bang the wall and tell God, "I hate you. I fuckin hate you for doing this!" Since that day for about a month, I ignored God and His existence. I completely lost respect, love, friendship and trust, as well as faith and hope in Him. And yet, I can stand here today and say that He loves me and that I love him back. That's why I broke down crying. No one understands, even I don't understand. But Roger held me all along. He held me like he meant it; keeping me safe in his arms and letting me know he cares and that he is and will be there for me whenever I need him (like a good friend and neighbor would). Then after our closing huddle, when I came back from the restroom from wiping my eyes, Jordan grabbed me, held me in his arms and told me the most beautiful thing anyone can ever say...He said, "Don't worry Rocio. You're going to Heaven no matter what you think. I'll see you there. You, Noe and Josiah, we'll all be there together. Don't worry. I love you!" And I stayed there crying again in his arms. All the while, he did not budge to let me go.
        I just hope that someday I'll be able to forget what I did and be able to truly forgive myself and forget it completely. I hope to one night be able to fall asleep without crying for the same thing over and over. I'm in love and i'm glad I finally am with God.

I think I fell in love with Jordan 10 times more when he whispered that to me. Not love like boyfriend or husband wise, but as a friend, as the great person that he is. I fall more and more in love with him every week. hehe...I think it's him who's opening my eyes to God. I dunno...all this sounds so religious-like. But I'm happy and that's all that matters right now...

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY DAVID CHASE WILSON!!!!!

hmm...yeah i dont think i'm gonna finish my last update...there's just too much...i luvd my saturday and i'm so glad for all that happened. i think i'll just keep it to myself...

ok so...Danny hasn't called yet. i keep running into his band-partner but not him. eh. w/e. Justin and i have been talkin. Ricky's askin me out on another date and i dont wanna go.

there's something i keep thinking about...and it sux. it's that last nite i got to kiss him. and how like he pulled me away instead of me always pulling him away from his friends. and he's the one that shut me up by kissing me. and it was the best kiss i've ever had. and i mean ever! it was one of those like really slow passionate kisses...and i'm like...wat would have happened if i had stayed the way he asked me to. i mean, would we be together right now? it's just so weird...eh.

fuck it. i'm out.

hmm...ok well i gotta jet to work...so i shall finish my beautiful story later! gosh it's like i just lived my dream! eek....

hmm...so friday's party at Matt/David/Manny's house was fun! everyone who's everyone (from Montwood...lol)was there! i saw Eggo and Rene!!! aaw. gosh i miss their funny frontchi butts! literally...lol. they've got huge huge butts! hehe...soccer players...ay. i miss havin them in physics and pre-cal last year. aaw. hmm, k. i saw, my 04boys there, my sis and paul and tammy included. i saw Johnny Valles w/ drunken Prissy and Barbie! lmao! i had to take care of them two w/ Johnny. lol...Crystal (who was drunk as heck!!! couldn't even walk...), Yamel, Yazmin, and Elanie were there. Mozley went too! he's leavin for the airforce next week... :o( eek. i saw Michael too. he joined the Army. wat an idiot! dang it! i miss him too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! let's see...Carlos, of course Mencaca, Matt, David, Manny, Paul from 05 and tall Paul from 04. Beaner was there too. Brenda and her fiance. um...shit too many people...Katy and Sasha from 04....and so on...lol. Jessie! too! she cut her hair! she's got a mohawk thing goin on now. lol...it's cute.

Saturday i, yeah, stayed home, talked on da phone w/ this one guy i dont think i should be talkin to. lol...Sunday and Monday after work i went to Kristoph's w/ Noe and got to talk to Julio da coolest manager ever! i might get a job there! that would be flippin sweet! Noe's tryin out for Primos. which by da way has badass managers too..hehe.

Lunch today was crazy! all of the guys and da girls went together....dang. we took up like four tables at Wing It! haha...we're so loud! haha. i got wrestled by Elias who beat Noe once again in wrestling. lol...it's funny da way Elias just twists Noe's body around like whatever. haha...in class yesterday was funnier! haha. oh and accidentally i got Elias in trouble and got his phone taken away by Clarke cuz like we always text each other in class...and so i decided to bug him bout touchin himself...cuz he's gay like dat...(inside joke) and when he started to read my message he got caught! HA! lmao....

yup. it's official. i dont think i wanna hang out w/ Yamel anymore...she's hurting me like never before. she changed soo much it's not even funny! gah! if she could only see...i guess saturday's an exception tho, since we're goin to da concert together...hmm...yeah, gotta jet. gotta teach my class at church and pickup my check bitches! haha....do it up!

this is da best freakin song ever...the beat...the way they sing it! eek! haha...luv these lyrics...

In (my fantasy)
You are (here with me)
So you can tell it's alrite
...It's killing me...
--"Away from you"--

Wednesday was early release and it was hella fun! i went w/ da guyz (steven, charlie, jordy, david, roger, vela, ray, noe, kristen, heather, and annia). we were racing down many streets...that's bad. lol...especially w/ all dem lil cameras they're puttin everywhere! lol...then we hit up Charlie's, then ours, then Roger's (across da street...lmao) then we hit up some junior's party. it was gay. then we went home. ate, rested for bout an hour, then hit up da streets again! hehe

EEK!!!!!! MENCHACA'S BACK IN TOWN!!! omg! i missed him! he made me cry by da hug he gave me! aaw...now i can actually pass by and see his truck at the end of da street. :oD so yeah, i'ma go party it up tonite w/ him! yay! Party at DiscoDuck's!!! cant wait! it's supposed to be "big" and shit! "party of da year!"...hmm yeah, we'll see...lol

My sister's so spoiled! she got dat new IPod w/ video storage and games! lucky bia! i'm tellin u, she's so spoiled it's not even funny! she got two gucci purses. and other stuff. eh! w/e. i havent' got her anything yet. wat's to compare w/ dat!!! i always used to get her da best! now i cant. damn Paul! lol...eh. do it up! gotta go...here's some lyrics for your thoughts:

it hurts...but i have to get through it. i cant stand seeing them together. i saw them the other day together. ay no. no puedo. pero tengo que y lo hare...

hmm...ok, so she leaves manana...ah boo hoo! haha! j/k actually i'm gonna miss my cuzn! gosh i luv her! it's too bad i only see her like twice a year, once when i go over summer, and once when she comes during winter (thanksgiving, our baby nephew's b-day or christmas)...*tear. i didnt even get to see her this time around, cuz of work and school! that effin sux! eh.

tomorrow's Yamel's b-day. i dunno if i should give her her b-day present now or wait til dat day. cuz i got her a ticket to The Early November! hehe....gosh i'm just da bestest friend and sister in da world! haha! i got Noe one too. so he better luv this sister more! haha. i was pissed cuz i was supposed to go watch HARRY freakin POTTER with Teti on saturday, but i ended up goin to da utep game, and he went w/ our cuzns who were in town. dang it! now who do i go w/?!

i'm thinking bout goin to Cali to visit Melinda! eek! i luv her!!!!!!!!!! she's my bestest friend in da world. seriously. not once has she let me down...well besides da fact that she lives miles away now...i also wanna go to Knott's Merry Farm, and Disneyland, and visit ma cuzns who i didnt get to see in town dis weekend...*tear.

i'm still so stoked bout December the third!!!!!!!! i seriously think i have ADD. i should get checked. lol. but then wat if i do, and have to take medication?! ugh! no way! hmm...and i think i have insomnia too. or maybe that's just a GT thing....haha. junior year all over again! eek. i told Alex, Mr. Devine, to get me a Gingerbread Latte tomorrow morning, he better! cuz i'm gonna need caffeine after writing this semester essay shit! grr. i dont get how him and his cuzn, wat's her name?! are so different! gosh, she's so annoying! her and Donna! grr. but hey i havent told them nothing, i'm chill. she's smart but in a very odd way. lol.

oh yeah, and i cant believe wat happened btwn Bernie and Annia!!! omg!!! haha. life's crazy! cant wait to see Mencaca wednesday!!! gosh i miss him so much! i remember whenever i needed to talk to someone or jus like wanna walk around, i'd go to his casa and call him out. i miss my older brotherish neighbor! dang. everytime i pass da corner and dont see his truck there...*tear. hmm...but yeah him and all da gurls are coming home wednesday! SWEET!!!!!!

I LOVE ME THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

unexpected question of da day: "when are you kissing him again?" Me: "um...wat are you talking about?! never, he's gone." Her:"shut up! how bout at TEN's?" Me:"i dunno. i hope so. he's the only one i want. who's only lips i wanna kiss. who's only eyes i wanna see. who's only hair i wanna touch. and who's only skin i wanna caress..." Her:"wow that's deep. and we're in calculus!" haha...random...

So much has happened lately! hehe...hmm...ok let me clear up ditch day. i ditched you guys, i stayed home and slept in, i wasn't sick or nothing. k?! lol...my mom rox! she suggested it! hehe...by da way, it was her b-day yesterday! hehe! aaw, but i spent my time at work! those bitches! haha.

let's see...game day was hella fun! first we went to "dirtay sanchez"'s thing! hehe...um. but there was no one there! lmao! just him and dat guy! but we talked and drank a lil and you know he got to know me w/o being drunk like always! haha. HE ACTUALLY MET ME SOBER! lmao! then we left that to go to our FCA Game Day! hmm...those fajitas were the shit! they were da best i've ever had! like for realz. better than even Taco Tote! dang. and i stuffed myself w/ Tortillas. oh no, wait, i stuffed myself w/ those Pennies' homemade cupcakes and brownies! hmm! i musta gained like 10lbs w/ those! haha.

we took lots a pictures. got some hot cocoa during da game. Dogpile! gosh! haha...they all dogpiled me at da game! dang! haha. it was so much fun w/ da boys! my boys! hehe...Jordy! fuckin Roger's crazy! taking off his shirt and shit! wtf?! haha...aaw and Roby was so cute! i luv his hair! he's a lil chubchubs. but w/e. no biggie.

ooh...gotta go to work. sorry...

IT'S BEEN A MONTH!

OKAY I GET IT!

no more meanie poo! now i'm gonna be nice Rosie! yay. true dat. muah!

weekend sucked! lmao

good thing: i finally went to a rock show again! it's been months!!! me and yamies went to a battle of the bands at um...El Paso High. it was aight, i really really liked one band in particular. i think it's like John's couzins band. or something.

i burned my tongue yet again, w/ French Vanilla Cap at work. haha. so did the other Rocio. it's funny tho, cuz this new supervisor guy, was all "hey Rocio" meaning me...but at work they all know me as Rosie to distinguish me from her, (who i hang out w/ a lot, so dat doest help either. lol) and so she turned around and not me...he got madd confused! haha.

i had a bad feeling about bonfires on saturday so i called yamies and told her not to go. so if any of u guys by any chance went to any bonfires let me know if something bad happened, k?!

FCA game day is saturday! it kinda suckz tho that we're goin to UTEP's last home game! FCA game day is supposed to always be the 2nd home game of da year. but w/e. i dunno if i wanna hang out w/ FCA then anymore. i'd rather hang out w/ yamies and '04 if it's our last home game!!! yay football! heehee...

oh and um...yeah, dont ever accept calls on weekends after midnite! lol...bad idea! so like ok, um...Jeff calls me. wants to "hangout". turns out he's high. on the other line, i get a call from Jason. who by da way is there w/ Jeff, high as well. telling me to go visit them at dat party, i tell them i cant, so they're like we'll go "visit you" emphasize on that. and i'm like "haha! u dont know where i live!" turns out they do, cuz supposedly Yamel showed Jason once, where i lived. and i'm like "oh shit!" then later after i fix that problem, i get called by the one and only jesus! ugh. he's da one trying to hook up w/ Yamies and me at da same time, but w/o ea. other knowing, it's stupid! wat a dumbass! but yeah, he's drunk and wants to see me. uh no! then like Yamies calls, "hey dude! i'm bored! where are you?!" haha...stopped answering my calls after dat. lol...

i really cant wait for december! i just cant anymore!!! December 3 is da concert finally! then i leave to da Bahamas for Christmas and New Year's!!! SWEET!!!!!!!!!! i'm so stoked about that! oh and it's big Ed's 18th.  and our supposedly huge party we're gonna throw for Yamel's and LC's 18th b-days!!! that'll be fun. and i get to invite whomever i want. yay! i should get strippers! lmao! my momma's and sista's b-days are coming up. dang...there goes my paycheck! lol...

• people need to stop pinching, slapping, grabbing, biting or anything and everything else to my butt! it belongs to me! not u! lol...(hint hint Krista, angie and Stephanie!)
  
• my butt got violated at least 14 times, i lost count after dat...at da dance.
• stephanie looked hott, so did ur date
• stephen looked hott, stupid natasha slut. haha. jk
• josiah woulda made a better homecoming king
• i dislike Gabe so much right now...miss Johnny
• it was a waste of my time and money all these montwood football games...
• i'm still a little tired and sore from saturday...
• free running baby! whoo!!!! cant wait
• so stoked about The Early November & Saves da Day
• cant wait for da Bahamas! and Cali!
• cant wait for thanksgiving week! so much to happen dat week...eek! i'ma luv it! get to see my cuzns again. once in like 3 years, once in like 2 years, and once in like a year...sweet!
• only one regret for this weekend. asshole! (well not so much regret but shouldnt have done that kinda thing)